Winter of College Life

2nd Oct'05

Hmm..The real life has begun after all... n wht can i say? its not a bed of roses...Monotony, tedium are the keywords at play here.. now tht Im out of the secure hostel life.. where hoards of other gals were there to share not only the happy moments, but also teh moments of discomfort (48 hr power cuts, no water etc etc), I feel like life gets worse as we get older..as kids we wanted to become teenagers, as teens we wanted to go to college, as college goers we wanted to start workin. N now whn I am workin... i feel like life cudnt get any worse... i mean the weekends are full of eating outs/movies/roamin around.... but always at the back of the mind lies the feelin tht the week ahead is jus around the corner..the 5 days of misery... In fact until now it wasnt misery fr me... the last month of trainin was jsut like college revisited.....but now whn trainin's ended, the future looks full of impending gloom. In the process of adjustin to a new city,I had a real harsh taste of reality......Things i never imagined could happen, happened, it was difficult,but guess it was a good thing.A quick dive into a pool of icy water is easier than slowly wading into the water...Whatsay??

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Not to Delete.. 1st July'05

About time I revamped this space.. neway its a new beginnin.. n the sorrow of departure has faded into anticipation fr a bright n busy future ahead.. Now all tht remains are bittersweet memories of times never to come bak again..just to cherish n recollect.... never to relive..
But its not as depressin as it sounds..I'm happy... not ecstatic mayb.. coz tht life was a life too free..too entertainin..to ever come bak again.. we'll all get lost in our new lives.. workin n struggling to achieve wht we've dreamt of.. So Life Goes on.

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Feb 22nd'05

Some of my friends feel that wht I've written below conflict with my nature.. well........ actually yea.. I'm not usually so sentimental.. however wht I've written is the product of a moment's reflection ..:) Yea.. such reflections occur very rarely with me.... n tis a matter of chance tht this time i perchanced to have the inclination to pen it down....
'To delete or not to delete...'?...That is the question..

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Feb 19th 2005 - Beginning of the End of an Era..

Life's abt to change in a big way....Life's always changin.. and with it..so do the people.....4 years of college.....in Allahabad(or any other college for tht matter)....can make or break u....
For me ... its been a rollercoaster ride...complete with its ups n downs.... where at moments u feel tht ur never goin to get thru safely.. while at other moments.. u wonder wht were u so scared abt.. its just a phase...
But life after such a journey can never be the same.........Likewise wth me..its been a metamorphic phase...from the introverted shy gal to the semi-extroverted open straight forward friendly gal i am today... Wont say its all for the better.. sometimes i miss the happiness i used to feel in solitude earlier... Now its difficult.. living alone.. the friends seem to grow on u.. u get used to thier presence , their jokes(pjs mostly)..their advice, their teasin, their stories... in short their lives. Now......as the days of departure near..we're all left with a tinge of happiness tht we're leaving (something we were thirsting for, for the last 3 yrs) ,but now whn the time has come.. there's more of an uncomfortable nostalgia thts its endin.. the freedom,the fun, the gaiety, the friends.. its all ending...
We're happy yet we're sad.....guess thts life.

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Too much hard work to describe myself.. guess tht tells u how lazy i am... im also pretty friendly, though i dont mind being alone sometimes..love reading, music..im very practical abt life... not emotional at all..n pretty ambitious.. got all those dreams .. just havent yet gotten the urge to make them come true...:):) but then.. life's just begun..:)