Friday, December 22, 2006

Bangalore Blues

The other day, actually come to think of it, quite some time ago, one fine evening, I was riding a bike with a friend , we were coming back from someplace I think, and we were nearby the Vidhan Soudha . The place was looking beautiful – well-maintained, well-kept, clean; quite unlike the rest of Bangalore.

For no reason I came to thinking… about Bangalore..

Before I came to this city last year, I was always fascinated with it. My brother had been in Mangalore for the past 4 years… and he used to come to Bangalore sometimes…
He’d always be saying, ‘we’re at Barista’, ‘we’re at a pub’ etc. and I’d always kind of yearn to experience all those new things. Having always been in small cities (or towns), i.e. Shillong, and then Allahabad, I’ve never tasted real city life for long. I’ve been to all the metros, but never long enough to feel its pulse. It was always a glimpse…a few days, that too not as a person belonging to that city, but as an outsider.

Bangalore gave me the first real taste of a metro. Unlike all the other metros, Bangalore is not as fast paced. It has a rhythm of its own. Not slow, yet not too fast. Not the hurry of Mumbai, where people rush to the local railways at 4am in the morning, and that is not a one-day thing – it’s day to day for them. I’ve actually seen this. First time I ever went to Mumbai (it was Bombay then), our train was delayed by some hours and we reached the Dadar station at 2am at night. For some reason, which I don’t recall now, we went by local train to Victoria Terminus (then). Even at 2 am, the trains had some people, its true maybe that the city never sleeps. At VT, everything was slightly quiet when we reached (2:30 am I guess). By 4 am, to our surprise, the station started getting crowded. People rushing to the trains, getting along with the day - amazing.
Anyway, having been the small town it was, (15 years back, maybe even lesser), it has retained some of that pace. One will hardly find people outside at 1 am or something. At least I don’t think so.

Now, with the majority of the IT industry being based here, more and more people are coming to this city, exhausting the infrastructure of this completely unprepared city. Now, people complain all the time of the crowds, the pollution, traffic, the list is never-ending. Nobody seems to want to stay here anymore. Yet, nobody seems to be leaving. Everyone will be cribbing, especially when stuck in an inexplicable traffic jam for more than an hour, and yet one will be thinking a million times before migrating to the other cities.
The weather is incredible – temperate climate throughout the year, hardly any heat and hardly any cold. Having stayed in Allahabad for 4 years, a place with extreme climate, I have experienced the worst of both worlds – walking to college in the scorching heat when the temperature is 45 degrees centigrade, for a class which was cancelled after we reached….one didn’t know whether to be happy that there’s no class or frustrated that we walked all the way, and our attendance wouldn’t count (for us, learning wasn’t relevant.. attendance was all that mattered), sitting in your room, wondering how it is that you can manage using your computer without having to leave the comfort of your warm bed, waking up at 9am and seeing nothing outside but white…for the uninitiated, that’s fog I’m talking about. Anyway coming back to the point, for me Bangalore was heaven when I came here; I came in August, when in Northern India, the heat is still on. Here, it was extremely pleasant, if not cool. Every evening, for about half an hour + 15 minutes, inevitably, it would rain. Evenings, you’d need a light jacket to be comfortable. That’s it. That was last year, this year its been slightly warmer, where unavailability of fans during March and April caused a little discomfort, and the cold never really set in until December (now)….

Now, like all other people who are not Bangalorean, I too perennially complain about the city, and its innumerable unresolved problems... and yet, I’m still here. For me, Bangalore has been an eye opener. Well, it’s no wonder that I crib about the city; this is the city to which I came to start my professional career, my first job. A life very distant from the easy carefree life back at college (I know I know I cant seem to get over the fact that college is over and those days are never going to come back), a far cry from having to worry about sessionals and semesters. The life is different, the activities are different, the worries are different, the friends are different, why blame the city?

Far away from home, managing to go back about twice a year - the low-cost flight airlines websites being one of the most visited sites in my internet history, complaining about the surrounding environment is but natural. And yet, when it comes to thinking about getting a transfer to another city, nearer to home, my mind thinks ‘n’ times and answers in the negative – stay here till shifting is unavoidable. My parents also prefer that I work here …why? Besides some stray incidents of mugging, robbery and murder, Bangalore is safer than most of the other big cities. Eve-teasing is uncommon, roads are safe. Yes, nightlife stops after 11-12 in the night… but so what, I never wander out at that time anyway. At least they’re not so worried when I’m unable to pick up their phone due to some reason. No riots, no bomb-blasts, no mobs. Yes there are the occasional terror threats, until now they have never materialized. I hope they never do.

For a person like me who doesn’t drink, and cannot dance, is too lazy to go trekking etc, and doesn’t have a very large friend circle to boast of, there’s nothing much to do in Bangalore. Except for the occasional movie, shopping, window shopping, mall-hopping (that too very much reduced now, because its just not worth it.. moving around in crowded spaces with seemingly no breathing space), I hardly ever do anything different. However, for people who love to do new things, see different things, there are the trekking trips, theatre, schools to teach everything – from piano to salsa, from painting to pottery, from cooking to driving… Then there are the sudden workshops, adventure sports camps, concerts, plenty of events to choose from. And if one is in the mood of traveling out into nature, there is no dearth of places to choose from. If you’re looking for big cities, all the major cities are overnight journeys from here- Hyderabad, Chennai, Mangalore, Pondicherry, Ooty, Kodaikanal etc. etc.

Since the time I’ve been here, I’ve also gone to some places, Munnar (a place in Kerala), Mysore, Ooty, and Kodaikanal. When I was small, id traveled down South a couple of times, At that time Chennai (Madras then) was the hub; we first went there, and from there traveled to several places, Pondicherry, Mysore, Trivandrum, Kanyakumari. At that time, Bangalore was nowhere on the map really, we did come here, but mainly to travel to Mysore from here.. It was a sleepy quiet town, with wide lanes, sparse traffic, nearly non-existent tourism, who could imagine that that town would become the nerve centre of the Indian IT business? At the amazing rate the city is expanding, who knows what the future holds for this Silicon City of India? Constructions everywhere, be it commercial or residential, be it plush apartments or malls, a concrete jungle is slowly enveloping the city.

From the terrace of our house here, I can see the expanse of plain land, covered with building of all shapes and sizes….beautiful houses I might add, here in Koramangala. In the midst of the endless concrete, some patches of green tend to provide relief to the eyes; a small park, some trees, someone’s well kept garden... I look skywards, and as I see yet another distant airplane coming into the city. It’s pretty awe-inspiring actually, the rate at which airplanes take-off and land in this city. Perhaps this is the only city where, wherever you go, if you look up, at some point, you are sure to see a plane flying in some direction; the current airport being right in the middle of the city. From our house terrace, within the space of minutes, one can see 2 airplanes flying in from the same direction, while planes are flying out in the opposite direction. It’s a nice pastime - standing out there in the evenings, looking at the planes, trying to guess the Airlines.

Some say Bangalore has lost its charm; the thousands coming here every year have inadvertently destroyed it. I am non-committal towards the statement for I might be counted as one of those. Despite all the negative opinions, I don’t think Bangalore is just another big noisy city. Agreed, its changed from what it was, some good changes, some bad, but then what hasn’t changed in so many years?
I, for one, know that when I leave this city, I’m sure going to miss it.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Excerpts of a Timeless Debate...

Following is an interesting exchange of mails I had with a very dear friend of mine, who is so different, and yet so familiar. He’s a very religious person, as opposed to my slightly godless approach towards life. We hardly ever talk about it, except in the earlier stages of our acquaintance when I used to be amazed by his piousness. Neither of us ever forced our individual views on the topic (religion) and neither did we ever argue over it. This conversation cannot be called an argument, merely a discussion of opinions. I was cleaning up my inbox, and I chanced across the last mail regarding this discussion, which had the entire history of mails below it. Decided it was an interesting mix of personal views and posted it…Besides just removing the short text we use for mailing, I’ve also left out the stuff not pertaining to the topic…so things might seem a little out of context in some places..

Aftab (hereafter mentioned as ‘A’):
I know u don’t fancy religion, but I want to tell u something... you have to face up to certain things in life...
You can’t just keep ignoring it just because it seems confusing or whatever at the outset...
I know there are many things to do in this life here on earth...but have u ever pondered, is this the ultimate aim?

Is it just getting that degree, getting a job, enjoying stuff etc.,
Yes, I accept, that all that is needed but that is a part of life, not life in itself...but that’s what most have made it out to be... tell me, look at the world around you, you see all kinds of people, you see rich people, you see poor people, you see disabled people, you see the most beautiful people, you see ugly people...is that ju
st...
what I mean to say is, a disabled guy has to face up to his/her disability all thru their lives & live with it but one who is hale & hearty leads a much more comfortable life...but why? What is it that the disabled guy did to deserve it? He was just born into this world that way...its no fault of his...have you pondered why this is so...
I know u can look away & forget it because it has nothing to do with u...but there are signs in all of this for us, it is upto you to understand it..
..

I:
Hmmmmm....see that’s your outlook..... you think that one should ponder into the deeper meaning of life and its endless mysteries...But see I don’t think one can ever get the answer to his questions of the Whys, Hows and Whens , when it comes to life....
I feel these are things that are there - maybe not at as meaningless coincidence of events... but something above and beyond us.

I don’t mean the scientific details... the Big Bang and the chemistry of life.... that is something that can be understood after research and all (i.e. it’s more about the WAY it works.. rather than WHY it works..)..
Do you think all the pondering can answer the fundamental question - why were we born..? How did an assorted list of chemicals suddenly decide to merge together and create an entity of its own?
These questions can be taken in a scientific approach as well as a philosophical approach.... via science one can at least find out how... but never why.
But see.... some things are meant to be left untouched... you cant ponder about all these questions and expect an answer.

Religion is a way of giving explanation to these questions - answer all questions with the assumption of a single all powerful entity who created the world and everything within it....
Maybe so, because it is virtually impossible to imagine that the entire universe was an accident of molecules....
Then again...maybe not…

And even if the answer is Yes, I don’t think the Almighty is really looking for someone to find proof of his existence.
He's out there... having created everything, maybe observing the fruits of his effort, but I don’t think I want to ponder about all his mysterious ways while I have the opportunity of living them...anyway nothing is to come from the endless questions. At least not philosophically; scientifically maybe so but then science will never be able to answer the WHY.
And I think maybe the WHY is answerable only after the cause of WHY (life) is over... maybe that’s why there is a concept of heaven...

Anyway maybe I’m talking a little off course from what you were saying…. all I’m saying is...you cant expect everything around you to be explainable.... and no amount of thinking or pondering is ever going to make these things understandable….like what you were saying - why are some people suffering while others aren’t, why some are beautiful and some aren’t....all these questions are entwined into one vast tapestry ....simply meant to be experienced.. not meant to be understood. Maybe because we're too little within that tapestry to be significant enough to have some answers...
Maybe that’s how he made it. Now its a matter of choice, whether one still want s to delve into all the endless questions…. searching... hoping for a satisfactory answer..
Or, taking life as it comes... questioning…but accepting that some things (a lot) are beyond our comprehension...and will always remain so...
If one is lucky, s/he will find their answers in the smaller things of life - be it a flower, a child, the sea, religion, anything at all...
Others...maybe they prefer to close their eyes to the infinity of questions and open themselves to their finite self....
Maybe the journey of life is at the end, the answer to the question of life...

That’s how I feel...so while u tend to question and ponder, I tend to ignore and accept.... that’s why we're different., but that’s also why we understand each other .

A:
I agree with u partly & disagree on certain other things which you’ve written...
I agree with your points where you say science can max answer how & can never answer why. I agree with you where you say certain things are above & beyond us & are better left untouched, we being weak & small when compared to this amazing creation called the universe...
But I disagree with what you consider above & beyond...when u have answers to certain things present , one should not consider that above & beyond. Questions like why is the sky blue, why couldn’t it have been yellow are above & beyond questions but at the same time questions whose answers will serve no purpose..
So, one should question (this is my opinion), things which serve a purpose in one's life & whose answers help the person to better comprehend the happenings around him - things which give meaning to his life; otherwise, all the events which happen around him are just a series of events...attributed to good luck, bad luck or whatever other superstitious beliefs...

Regarding proof of the existence of an Almighty God, as you’ve said, this universe itself is sufficient proof...according to me, only a fool can consider this universe an accident, an accident of molecules joining together or whatever..
Regarding the outlook to have in life i.e. whether to remain ignorant or ponder, is definitely a matter of choice...no doubt about that...and for either choice made, the person in question is fully responsible... You said, "maybe the journey of life is at the end the answer to the question of life...”, the answer definitely will be got at the end...when we leave this world. The thing is, the answer shouldn’t be something which comes as a surprise...

So, that’s what I feel...


I:
I guess we'll always disagree in such topics…
See, what makes anyone the judge as to whether answers to questions like 'why is the sky blue and not yellow' will serve no purpose?? And what makes one sure that the answers to other questions will help the person better comprehend the happenings around her/him. As for what you said “the thing is, the answer shouldn’t be something which comes as a surprise...' --- that is something which nobody can ever find out before it happens.... no matter how many answers you assume to have got... the end is always going to be a surprise....

All the concepts of death, be it reincarnation, Judgement Day, Moksha, are all ideas, concepts, beliefs that everyone wants to believe. Yet nobody can ever be sure what happens and guess that’s the way it should be. After all, if all one's life one ponders about what will happen Afterwards, s/he's never going to experience the full potential of life because, all the time, the questions will be hovering....
As for thinking that 'only a fool can consider this universe an accident'... well that’s your perception... a person believing the contrary could also say the same about people believing in God....
As in..... a scientist might say that the existence of a single Almighty power which is responsible for all creation is scientifically impossible ....he can break down the entire magic of creation into stages, phases, numbers and equations..
Maybe he's wrong, then again…… maybe he's not..
As I said before….one will never know.
And this dissent of views is a universal debate..
Yes ... the percentage of believers is much, much, much more than that of the disbelievers….--
Doesn’t automatically make them the right ones...

Every concept/belief different from the general belief is usually discarded, and then after getting undeniable proofs, the crowd reluctantly accepts it. Then, slowly it becomes the norm..
I don’t think this is ever going to happen in the case of the Hows and Whys of the universe (but one never knows)....so you can't really discard the idea....
For example...one guy in the US thinks that life on earth was brought on by aliens (Eric Von Daniken - Chariots of the Gods)......and he gives consistent proof. By the end of the book, one wonders why the whole world does not know about these ideas....it’s the same thing.... different concept....reaction of unacceptability....
Anyway that was just an example.

A:
Yes, disagreeing is inevitable in such topics... The debate on this topic will go on & on in the world till the end for sure.. Agreed that being a majority doesn’t make the idea they carry right. Yes, nobody can find the answer before it happens i.e. death, it being a surprise or not, is dependent on what you believed would happen & what actually happens then. Regarding the universe, yes, again, the debate between the atheist & a believer will always be there till the end... Regarding, "every concept/belief different from the general belief is usually discarded ....." , this is very true right from the start of this world, where all prophets sent were despised by their own people...calling them mad, sorcerers etc...


Here ended our debate - a rather abrupt end maybe. As expected, nobody’s opinion was changed, which was but an inevitable and foregone conclusion.